Larry and I have really made an effort to make a life for ourselves in South Carolina, especially with making friends. At my school, I have a small number of girls that are around my age without children, these are the women I have clung to. Quite perfectly, all of their husbands and Larry get along fabulous. I never realized how much time and effort it takes to really start and build friendships with people. Recently I made a huge mistake with one of the girls and lied to her about something really trival. I realized that I am more prideful and mindful of what people think of me, that I am about being true to what God says and that is "The Truth will set you Free". Long story short, after a close friend reminded me of this truth, I came clean with the friend, which was awful, but I'm so glad I did, because I need to cling to what is Truth and what is pure if nothing else. Stay true to the one who set you free. I am so grateful for Jesus, our ultimate Savior, who gives eternal grace.

Too Many Dreams

I always feel antsy and anxious to move on to the next big thing. I try to tell myself that I am so passionate for God that I want to serve him in any and every way that I can. But on the other hand, maybe my life has been just this charade of never getting attached to anything, always moving around and never settling down. I never felt like I was settling down with Larry. He was a guy that I knew I wanted to be around and be near. He gave off such an amazing energy that I knew I wanted to be running next to him for the rest of my life. Ever since I moved to South Carolina, I have been itching to move home to Michigan. But for the past four years in Michigan, I have been itching to move somewhere out of state. And now I am running my brain to figure out where I want to go next. I always believed that I liked staying in one place and setlling down, but something inside me gets excited at the thought of a new adventure. I want to be used in a powerful way by God. I want to meet people that God wants me to interact with. I want to serve him with my whole heart and I want to lay my dreams and recognitions down at his feet. I feel humbled at the thought of laying down my teaching career. You work your whole life for a degree to do what you are really passionate about (teaching). And then I realized that it doesn't mean that God can't have his hands in my lifelong dream of being a teacher. So, I am praying about my next move as a teacher and as a resident of South Carolina, waiting for my call from my Savior.

My First Blog

I have always wanted a place to share my thoughts. In college, I always wrote in a prayer journal but it always bothered me to write with a pencil. I found my mind going a mile a minute while my hand could only go so fast. I thought it would be so much easier just to state my requests to God than to write them all down. It was faster and lets face it, in a world of immediate satisfaction it was just so much easier. But the idea of a blog was put heavy on my heart. I have never been interested in one before. I always thought no one would want to read what I have to say and I really didn't have that much self worth to think that I had anything significant to say. But then I realized how much I think about things on a daily basis and how many random thoughts come into my mind. That's when the blog idea came up. What if I had a place where I could write all my random thoughts down? Only it wouldn't be writing and the more I thought about it, the more I felt like I needed to start my journey written (typed) down for God, myself and the world to see. So, this is only the beginning.